I was married. But I was happy.
Happier than I have ever seen myself.
I looked as if I were at peace.
I felt it.
But my husband had to leave because of his job.
I hated when he had to go.
I worried a lot.
His job wasn't the safest thing in the world.
We said our goodbyes and our I love you's.
Didn't know that it would be our last.
I watched myself suffer like I have never before...
This video pretty much explains my dream...... minus the kidd.
(Watch video before you continue reading... its best if you do)
(http://vimeo.com/12114048)
Funny thing: had this dream before I saw the video... lol
Background: I'm an army brat. My father was in the military for 20 years. Out of those 20 years, I could count on my fingers how many times I've seen him. He missed the father's days, the father- daughter dances, the pep- talks, and all that jazz. He missed the most significant parts of my life. The parts that have already sculpted me into who I am today. My mother struggled and raised me all on her own. He wasn't a dead beat dad. Its just he wasn't there when I needed him most. I told myself I would never e with a man who was in the military. I don't want to go through the pain, and stress, and worry and struggle my mother went through. I'm actually scared of it. Many guys have tried to pursue a relationship with me that were in the military, but I turned them down.
Conclusion: I think this dream was a message. I shouldn't run away from my fears. No matter the consequences. Because if it means me going through the stress, and worry, and pain, to be with that significant other, Ill do whatever it takes, and Put up with it all. It'll be worth it in the long run.
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